A Blood Prayer To The Full Moon

Lovers this has been a long-time coming. Some time ago, during a Blood Moon in 2016, I was feeling a really strong pull towards the Moon, as a lot of us I think were around that time. A pull to our roots, to our nature, to our ancestors, to our magic. Then, during a particularly strong moon, I got my period. I felt connected, completely. Blood, water, earth and air, ancestry and fire. They were all there. I sat down in front of my laptop, and wrote a prayer. I put it away. On another Full Moon I was pulled toward my prayer and I started drawing. And so on and so forth, for the past couple of years, when I bleed to the Full Moon, when She has called for me, I have replied by working on this prayer. I believe it is a spell in the making, a work of art to connect us to our bodies, to connect us to nature. It is a Bleeder’s prayer, but it is not only for bleeders. It is for the Bodies that miss Themselves. That feel disconnected. It is a call back home from the soil. Today, March 1st 2018, there is another Full Moon and I now offer this prayer to you, finally, to speak to you. It is not only about blood but about belief, identity, and our own godliness. I hope you find yourself somewhere in there. If you feel inspired by it, read below for a call to bleeder stories and art.

I wish the energy of the Full Moon may remind you of your humanity in any way that allows you to be compassionate with yourself and those around you tonight. Let us offer all our pain, all our sorrows, to the Esoil, that in this day and age is so filled with blood. Let us remember the Cycle, surrender to it, and in Faith, offer our healing to it as well. Let us cry for those that have died deaths in blood, and breathe in our own lives, with the knowing that they are free from the Earth’s troubles now.

A Blood Prayer to the Full Moon, but also to You, brother, sister, sibling, who remains alive in a bloody life.

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A Shunned Miracle, A Stolen Secret, A Raging Storm. Waters Fluctuate. I only speak to the ones that understand.

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My body prayed to the Full Moon and she prayed back in aches and groans…I mirrored the Moon and she mirrored back in Spells and Blood
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I am shedding a past that was also a future, it is all of time And it is everywhere, pouring out of me…Into the Earth, into its grave, into the soil, to feed, and give life

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perfect creatures

drowning in salt water

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(((Full Prayer BELOW)))

I heard a song about a girl named Lucy
Maybe that’s who’s listening now
Dear Lucy…

I can feel the moon pulling at me
It’s willowing in the loins of the Earth,
under my belly.
It used to whisper “womanhood” now I’m not sure what it says
but I know it’s magic

Dear Lucy

I’m bleeding,

And it is a miracle that they tell me not to talk about.
“It is innapropriate” they say,
to speak about the blood
that connects me to the water
of creation itself
A Shunned Miracle,
A Stolen Secret,
A Raging Storm.
Waters Fluctuate.
I only speak to the ones that understand.

I was praying to the moon
and your name came up
with the twinkling of the stars
a myth
told only by moonlight
Of a girl

In the sky with diamonds

she too bleeds
she bleeds stardust
the ashes that create us

My body prayed to the full moon and she prayed back
in  aches and groans
I mirrored the moon
and she mirrored back
In spells and Blood

I am shedding a past that was also a future
it is all of time
and it is everywhere
Pouring out of me

And into the earth
Into its grave
into the soil
to feed and give life

And once a month my shadow whispers my  name

as I get on my knees
And howl to the moons
And it chants secrets to me in my dreams

The chanting

Of all those women
with the same stories
all of fire. earth. water. blood.

The stories we wrote about
the girls we fell in love with
and the boys who broke our hearts

the stories about the perfect creatures we wanted to be,
and the tragically imperfect beings we found we were.
Imperfect, but magical. Bleeding. Alive.

This is not for those that do not hear it
but for us who can’t ignore it.
This is not for those who face the ocean
thinking they would come out alive
but for those that surrendered to it,
drowning our fears and baptizing our selves with salt water
In the name of Life.

For those reborn once a month.
For those who believe in the magic. Our magic.

Were I to ever forget
the moon is there reminding,
the cycle demanding

a blood sacrifice monthly.
And i remain always
its loving servant

If you’re an artist and were inspired by this and wish to be a part of an exposition that features these type of vibes in 2019, write me at: maelle@colormaelle.com

Also, Looking for bleeder stories of ALL bodies, special invite to trans bodies and other-abled bodies.

Decidedly unscientific.

(SeLoFest17 Post: Day 21, click here for all prompts so far)

I try to keep my friends in varied ages, social contexts, ethnicity, but that all have a common moral ground, to a certain extent. What I end up respecting the most is the moral ground, their intelligence. I pride myself in keeping company with something positive to contribute because that way I feel challenged to constantly be doing the same.

I try to be as compassionate and understanding in my listening as possible, because I feel like I have a privileged viewpoint from which to do that, and I should own it and use it to the advantage of my superpower.

I have always had a bit of a division with certain people when it comes to my spirituality and belief in magic. Many people lump spirituality, religion, and new age hooey all sort of into a mystical clump. Which does not bother me, but it does sometimes limit me in being able to share a perspective or exchange in dialogue about certain topics.

After overanalyzing the universe itself, and listening to what every greatest mind has ever said ever, pretty much we really don’t know what we’re talking about in regards to anything real because the universe is vaster than our understanding ever has been. There are unexplained mysteries, and unreliable telling and manipulating of historical facts, science manipulated by businesses, all of that through the lens of human perspective and the limits of human arrogance. So the only facts that are actual truth are the ones we make up and pretend that matter.

So because no one can be sure of anything, we can also not be unsure of anything. I rather not say I don’t believe or disbelief anything at 100%, because I don’t know, and no one can assure me that they do either.

So I choose to live believing and embracing more and more the magic within me, the brujeria I come from, which is a long path of walking down a foggy road without knowing too much where I’m going but just having faith in the humming within me that connects me to nature and the in-between concepts of our multi-layered existence.

Elizabeth Gilbert talks about magic in a way I’d like to share with you here:

“I believe that the creative process is both magical and magic. Because here is what I choose to believe about how creativity functions: I believe that our planet is inhabited not only by animals and plants and bacterias and viruses, but also by ideas. Ideas are disembodied, energetic life-form. They are completely separate from us, but capable of interacting with us –albeit strangely.” -Gilbert,Big Magic

There’s so much in between what seems like space around us that is not talked about, so many miracles that we do not realize, that we close off the part of ourselves that creates that magic. To me, that is called spirituality. Listening to the magic within you is to me, listening to your spirit, or soul. Listening to the spirit of the Universe.


I’ve had a hard time embracing that, because the side of me that needs to be on Earth so as to help others, often times feel like I have to choose a side.

But I have been learning how to not do that, and rather understand that magic is not a side to anything, but simply what exists between everything. It is what makes life bearable, when you See.

What is the magic within you?


The prompt: What is your magic? Do you consider yourself to be open minded? Why or why not? If you do, what is something that you close your mind to and why? Explore the reasons. Think of how you may be blocking yourself. (We all do it somehow. If you don’t think you are, you are more likely than not, hiding something from yourself.)

The activity: choose an image that you can manipulate (and turn upside down)

in your journal: draw the image upside down. Here’s an explanation about the benefits of this exercise. Try to release of control of seeing everything exactly as you feel it should be. Consider the strength you could gain from it.