A Blood Prayer To The Full Moon

Lovers this has been a long-time coming. Some time ago, during a Blood Moon in 2016, I was feeling a really strong pull towards the Moon, as a lot of us I think were around that time. A pull to our roots, to our nature, to our ancestors, to our magic. Then, during a particularly strong moon, I got my period. I felt connected, completely. Blood, water, earth and air, ancestry and fire. They were all there. I sat down in front of my laptop, and wrote a prayer. I put it away. On another Full Moon I was pulled toward my prayer and I started drawing. And so on and so forth, for the past couple of years, when I bleed to the Full Moon, when She has called for me, I have replied by working on this prayer. I believe it is a spell in the making, a work of art to connect us to our bodies, to connect us to nature. It is a Bleeder’s prayer, but it is not only for bleeders. It is for the Bodies that miss Themselves. That feel disconnected. It is a call back home from the soil. Today, March 1st 2018, there is another Full Moon and I now offer this prayer to you, finally, to speak to you. It is not only about blood but about belief, identity, and our own godliness. I hope you find yourself somewhere in there. If you feel inspired by it, read below for a call to bleeder stories and art.

I wish the energy of the Full Moon may remind you of your humanity in any way that allows you to be compassionate with yourself and those around you tonight. Let us offer all our pain, all our sorrows, to the Esoil, that in this day and age is so filled with blood. Let us remember the Cycle, surrender to it, and in Faith, offer our healing to it as well. Let us cry for those that have died deaths in blood, and breathe in our own lives, with the knowing that they are free from the Earth’s troubles now.

A Blood Prayer to the Full Moon, but also to You, brother, sister, sibling, who remains alive in a bloody life.

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A Shunned Miracle, A Stolen Secret, A Raging Storm. Waters Fluctuate. I only speak to the ones that understand.

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My body prayed to the Full Moon and she prayed back in aches and groans…I mirrored the Moon and she mirrored back in Spells and Blood
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I am shedding a past that was also a future, it is all of time And it is everywhere, pouring out of me…Into the Earth, into its grave, into the soil, to feed, and give life

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(((Full Prayer BELOW)))

I heard a song about a girl named Lucy
Maybe that’s who’s listening now
Dear Lucy…

Listen,
I can feel the moon pulling at me
It’s willowing in the loins of the Earth,
under my belly.
It used to whisper “womanhood” now I’m not sure what it says
but I know it’s magic

Dear Lucy

I’m bleeding,

And it is a miracle that they tell me not to talk about.
“It is innapropriate” they say,
to speak about the blood
that connects me to the water
of creation itself
A Shunned Miracle,
A Stolen Secret,
A Raging Storm.
Waters Fluctuate.
I only speak to the ones that understand.

I was praying to the moon
and your name came up
with the twinkling of the stars
a myth
told only by moonlight
Of a girl

In the sky with diamonds

she too bleeds
she bleeds stardust
the ashes that create us

My body prayed to the full moon and she prayed back
in  aches and groans
I mirrored the moon
and she mirrored back
In spells and Blood

I am shedding a past that was also a future
it is all of time
and it is everywhere
Pouring out of me

And into the earth
Into its grave
into the soil
to feed and give life

And once a month my shadow whispers my  name

as I get on my knees
And howl to the moons
And it chants secrets to me in my dreams

The chanting

Of all those women
with the same stories
all of fire. earth. water. blood.

The stories we wrote about
the girls we fell in love with
and the boys who broke our hearts

the stories about the perfect creatures we wanted to be,
and the tragically imperfect beings we found we were.
Imperfect, but magical. Bleeding. Alive.

This is not for those that do not hear it
but for us who can’t ignore it.
This is not for those who face the ocean
thinking they would come out alive
but for those that surrendered to it,
drowning our fears and baptizing our selves with salt water
In the name of Life.

For those reborn once a month.
For those who believe in the magic. Our magic.

Were I to ever forget
the moon is there reminding,
the cycle demanding

a blood sacrifice monthly.
And i remain always
its loving servant

If you’re an artist and were inspired by this and wish to be a part of an exposition that features these type of vibes in 2019, write me at: maelle@colormaelle.com

Also, Looking for bleeder stories of ALL bodies, special invite to trans bodies and other-abled bodies.

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(SeLoFest17 Post: Day 11, click here for all prompts so far)


Yesterday, we discussed acknowledging the Other both within us and outside. Today’s reflection is about practicing compassion towards the side of us that may have shown racism and ignorance. Sometimes we hide those aspects of ourselves, we deny them, reject them, pretend they don’t exist. But within us, they fester and come out in indirect ways, most of the time, resulting in self-loathing or rejecting a part of yourself and thus never achieving the feeling of fulfillment.

What might it look like to support someone we don’t know at all? What might it feel like to show compassion to someone we do not recognize?

Sometimes, we want to show compassion, we want to fight, we want to heal, we want to empathize, but we barely have any energy to take care of ourselves, or rather we are way too busy with trying to provide for a family to also extend ourselves out to the world.

However, by not acknowledging the “negative”, and the “ugly” of life, we are ignoring the yin and yang, the what-comes-up-must-come-down, the balance of all. Hiding away from our flaws or the pain in the world does not help us or humanity. It hinders us, lulls us into a false sense of joy, but keeps us limited and ignorant. There are many people that feel like they don’t want to (or can’t) experience pain, and rather hide. They think they’re better off ignoring.

Short term, perhaps. But no matter how good things are when you’re ignoring life, they are so much better when you learn your strength in being able to handle things. What happens if you begin climbing the age ladder of being in your 60’s-70’s and perhaps your body isn’t what it used to be, or you reach your 80’s and you feel out of touch with those around you? When you’re at the age where your friends are reaching the end of their life? What happens when you are forced to face the decisions you didn’t make in your own life? Faced with mortality and new ways of enjoying life? What happens when you come to a place where you have less distractions, and all there is to do is be with yourself? I have been close to people that are old not because of their age but because of their mentality. They feel their body is stuck, they feel their mind is stuck, and all they do is blame everything on everyone else and every other circumstance. They never once look at themselves, at the flaws they have, at what they could still change…they’re miserable, alone, disappointed, and it is no fun being around this person.

So instead of waiting around until we are mentally too old to feel like we can still grow, how about spending that youthful wisdom on knowing You’re Never Too Old?

SeLoFest17 Challenge

The Prompt: Step outside your comfort zone, think about someone that is maybe completely unlike you and is within a marginalized group. Are you a woman? Good, did you know that there are SO MANY women that need your support and that begins by acknowledging their existence? Are you able-bodied? Good, have you ever stopped to think about people who are disabled? How they are viewed as people who we should pity? That isn’t very empowering. Are you a man? Good, have you ever stopped to think about transgender men? Or what it might feel like to be an intersex person? Do you have children? Good, have you thought about all those refugee children that are now starving and dying?

Activity: Open your heart and think about something you’ve heard about before many times but sort of ignored because it “didn’t apply to you”. It could be something like autism, prostate cancer, depression, sex mutilation, homosexuals in Russia, or literally anything else that might have showed up in your Facebook feed, but something that has NOT affected you personally in any way. Study it, take a few minutes to google it, maybe look for a facebook group or a speaker, find out things about it, and then create a piece of art that is meant to raise awareness and teach others of this cause that you have decided to look more into. TedTalks are a good place to get great information in a 20 minute video that’ll get you started and usually, caring.

In your journal: Create a piece of Artivism, and write down a few words about why you chose this specific matter, and how it affects you. Make it real, if you can’t authentically answer ‘why should people care about this matter?’ then you aren’t moved. Learn about someone else, and make it your business to practice compassion.

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