(SeLoFest17 Post: Day 18, click here for all prompts so far)
When there’s no more energy,
no more motivation
no more reason
no more desire
no more will
no more power
when you just
When it’s dark
and there’s nothing
What do you do? What do you give? How do you love yourself?
By allowing. By accepting. By letting yourself feel that way, accepting that this is how you feel, forgiving yourself for any way that you are hurting yourself, and rest.
Take the time to rest. Take the time for your survival, for your breath, for your brain.
Because the truth of the matter is, that no matter what you believe, you deserve that time, to hurt, to acknowledge the garbage, the shit, the blatant unfairness, the fucking injustice, the helplessness and hopelessness. You deserve the time to breathe that in, and feel those feelings. I would perhaps even say, you must. If you want to live the joy of freedom, then you must allow yourself the freedom, and you must take the time.
The Prompt: Give voice to the parts of you that you are not giving the time to.
The activity: Meditate for 30 minutes. Allow yourself to sit in your feelings. Let the voices have their space. Do not judge them, shame them, or shush them. Allow yourself the guilt that may come with them. Let the light of your meditation be forgiveness. Practice self compassion.
In your journal: Allow yourself to express your subconscious. Write or draw whatever comes forth for you. Make lists, draw circles, make dots, write poetry, allow whatever needs to come forth, to just come forth.
Something I wrote a few days ago that is my reminder of why we deserve self forgiveness.